my brother and sister in law are probably spending a lot of time with her extensive family, my mom is drinking heartily with friends of hers south of here by about an hour, many of my friends are spending time at the fortress, but i am alone. this is by choice, of course, i really do need to get the place ready for incoming folks for new year's celebrations. but after a week of being around people, i am feeling somewhat lonely. not in the depressed way of lonliness i realize a lot of people feel around this holiday, just in the way of trying to readjust back to my normal mode of life.
it will be nice having people around on friday for games and drinking again, then new year's will be its usual incredible blast, then i will have to go through this readjustment again. but then i'll also be busy with schoolwork, i'll immerse myself in my studies and my work again, the solitude will be welcome.
but tonight i feel lonely.
Through the times of lasting love
When parents talked of things tried and tested
It don't feel the same
-- Portishead, "Half Day Closing"